Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Project 251: The Force Awakens

On Sunday, I went in to work as I was covering for someone who took some time off. It turned out to be a slow day however and they sprung me early. As we still had the better part of the afternoon, Best Guy and I went out for lunch and then checked a few towns off the list. We're still sticking pretty close to our home base and we can only do five before we get sick of the driving, so this is going to take us a while. Still, I think the pictures show we're having a fun time! Now, if I could just stop being a back-seat driver in the passenger seat, we'd be all set.

#28: Essex. I actually work in Essex but we both agreed that taking a picture
in front of my workplace was a no-go. Especially since I'd just left there
a scant 90 minutes previously. 

#29: Jericho. Not too far from where I work, but we're always passing through
on the way to somewhere else. Usually my Mom's.

#30: Underhill. It's a lovely, blink-and-you'll-miss town. But we took a lot of
back roads from there (many I'd never been on) to get to...

#31: Bolton. The mountain ski resort is Bolton Valley. Lovely views. We stopped at the sign.

#32: Huntington. Where the Community Garden is growing... snow?

Who knows where we'll end up next? At least we won't make you wait until 2017 for the next installment.

Friday, December 18, 2015

So.... This Happened Last Night....

Storm Trooper genuinely liked my R2D2 scarf. Also, this picture made me extremely happy.

Oh yeah.

I have been a huge Star Wars fan since the beginning. 4-6. We don't talk about 1-3 because WTF were you thinking George Lucas?

So, to see this movie on opening night with all my people was fantastic.
The line as seen in the ceiling of the theater. Hey, it's Vermont. That's a line.

People cheered when I wanted to cheer, they clapped when I wanted to clap, and they got all of the inside jokes and asides.

To see a franchise that meant so very much to me take a nose dive was disheartening. To see it resurrected, well, it does a heart good. I'm not saying the movie was perfect. Best Guy (who is less than a fan than I am [I don't hold that against him]) had a few niggles from the night and I can't say I disagree with him. But overall, the movie gave us everything we wished 4-6 had given us.

In-Line Selfie! Only one hour to wait at this point before we got into the theater.

We all have those stories (fairy tales, books, TV series, comics, whatever) that somehow just resonate with us in a way that nothing else does. I can't explain why I've been obsessed with Star Wars since I was five. I've seen the original movies so many times I don't actually need to see the movies anymore. There is something about this story, this plight of the hero, this yearning to fulfill this deep knowledge that you were meant for something greater, that just speaks to me.

Also, it's my life's goal to be a Jedi. Just sayin'.

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Countdown to Christmas. Which We're Doing on Boxing Day because I have to Work on Christmas.

So, we've got 10 days or so until the "big day". We are hosting Christmas this year, and I think Best Guy is getting a kick out of having a Christmas tree in the house. We bought a few new ornaments this year so BG is represented on the tree and it isn't all just my childhood ornaments. Also, I managed to find this little gem:
For Buddy
Also also, I found these:

Because crackers are a long-standing Hannukah tradition. 

Also also also, I made this:

It is a vegetarian tourtiere. A tourtiere is a French-Canadian meat pie.
So, technically I've created a monster. A yummy, yummy monster.
I may or may not be having too much fun trying to integrate other traditions. Instead of mashed potatoes this year, we will be having latkes, complete with sour cream and applesauce. My sister-out-law has had some serious dietary troubles this past year and is now following basically a Paleo diet without nightshades. So, we've got a vegetarian and a tomato/potato-free paleo. Both ends of the spectrum there...

I feel kind of bad for her, because most of what we're making is going to make her insides rebel. She's totally willing to ease up on her diet for a day because you have to live, but she'll suffer the consequences the next day. There will be a few items that are friendly to her belly though. If she goes for the sour cream cookies, well, that's on her.

Anyway, I'm slowly cooking my way through the things that can be made ahead of time. I'm planning on making a turkey breast instead of a whole bird, but I'm having issues finding one large enough that isn't a frankenturkey. I may end up making two different kinds of roast beast. That has been the only thing I haven't really figured out yet.

In the meantime, I'm mostly finished my shopping with the exception of a stocking stuffer or two. I also had to explain how stockings are supposed to work to BG, who thought they were just there for decorative purposes. We had been hoping to follow his tradition of Chinese food on Christmas (which while on the 25th, will be Christmas "Eve" for us since we're celebrating on Boxing Day instead.), but we're pretty sure the place we order from is closed that day.

I have been having a lot of fun working my way toward this celebration in my new home, with my new family. Every day this house feels more and more like our own, and creating our own memories in this place will solidify our belonging. I am so grateful for all that I have been blessed with.


Thursday, December 10, 2015

This Moss-Free Stone Keeps Rolling

I'm sure by now you are all aware of Facebook's...thing where they will dredge up old posts and stick them in your feed to share (or not) as you see fit. Lately, Facebook has been notifying me of things I posted three years ago. At first I was all.... what happened three years ago? A little clicking and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Three years ago I was neck deep in the break up that broke me.

At first, I was surprised that it was only three years ago; because it feels a lifetime to me these days. I was confused and heartbroken and shattered. Much more so than I probably should have been, considering how rocky the relationship was.

What's that they say about hindsight being 20-20?

Three years out of that relationship, I think I was mourning more for the shattered dreams I was trying to force into creation more than the loss of the individual. I put so many denial blinders on that I refused to see our dynamic for what it was: one-sided, closed-off, and cold. I got the raw end of the deal in that relationship, but I thought so little of myself that I was willing, nay desperate to put up with it because I feared I would never find anything else.

Well, ha. Ha ha ha.

Even three years out, I actually feel weird about writing this post. I guess I still feel guilt. Not so much about how the relationship ended, but how I allowed myself to stay in an unsupportive, unloving relationship. Moreover, that I felt it was the best I could do and all I would ever get. How did I think so little of myself? How was I so willing to throw my basic needs to the wind? Why was I so willing to disappear for this person, who so obviously did not deserve me? I feel shame for letting myself sink so low. Shame and embarrassment.

But I've also come to see something else. That relationship was my rock bottom. Because of it, I started a long journey that uncovered old, broken stories that needed letting go. I did some deep, dirty, nasty work and I came out on the other side. Lighter, brighter, and more confident in who I am as a woman, as a partner, and as a person. If it were not for that relationship, I would not be where I am right now. Engaged to a wonderful, open, affectionate, loving man. We see and accept each other for who we are. We support each other, we make sure each other's needs are being met, and moreover, we have fun together.

In looking back, I am grateful for the pain, for the work, for the journey. I am grateful that I finally learned the lessons I'd been circling around for so long. They allowed me to move forward, move to where I am right now.

Because where I am? So very, very worth the work.

(insert sappy love emoticons here)

This guy. He makes my heart sing. In tune, no less. 

Friday, December 4, 2015

It's All Good.

I was going to write a long and involved post about traditions and changing traditions and developing news ones...

Blah blah blah.

Instead, here is a cat with a tree.

Last Chance.

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