Thursday, January 31, 2013

Whole30 Day 11

I hate all the vegetables.

Those poor, innocent, lovely vegetables.

I hate them all.

So.... obviously I'm struggling a little bit with the limitations of this diet. Also, I'm nearly out of fruit. Gah! So I need to go to the store. Because for me fruit seems to be the key here. Which is not entirely kosher but OMFG I so did not get fat eating strawberries. Just sayin'.

I am on the fence as to whether or not I will finish the 30 days. On the one hand, I want to. If only to see what additional changes may come in the nineteen remaining days. On the other hand, I have never wanted a cup of greek yogurt so badly in my life.

Last night, I dreamt of Larabars.

Yeah, that's right. I dreamt about raw-food sweet vegan yumminess. While they are made entirely of Whole30 compliant food, they are not recommended as they can trigger candy-bar desires with many people. Even me apparently, who can't remember the last time she bought a candy bar.

Also, I am getting a little concerned that the cleanse might be triggering some of my food rule/control issues.

... now you are all probably yelling at the computer "YOU THINK?!?!?!"

I am very proud of myself for eating this way for eleven days. Whether there are nineteen more days in this experiment remains to be seen.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Whole30 Day 10

1/3 of the way through, y'all.

By the way, if you're still reading while I post about this, thanks. I'm sure this is of little interest to the three of you who regularly visit my blog. But I appreciate it.

I belong to a Whole30 facebook group and there has been some discussion on why potatoes are not included on the program. The short of it is, they are considered a neutral food by the powers that be. Not bad for you, but there is no real nutritional value so you are better off filling your plate with other things. First of all, I would like to dispel the myth that there is no nutritional value in a potato. I'm getting my info here:

Amounts Per Selected Serving
Vitamin A
Vitamin C
Vitamin D
Vitamin E (Alpha Tocopherol)
Vitamin K
Vitamin B6
Vitamin B12
Pantothenic Acid

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These amounts are for a large potato, steamed with skin, no salt. What potatoes do have is a large amount of carbohydrates, which is the real reason they are demonized in the low-carb world. But they are not bad for you. Just sayin'. As you can probably tell I love me my taters. And hoo-doggy do I miss them.

Here are some food shots:

The Beef and Beet stew. It is way redder than this in real life. I needed to add WAY less beet, but it's pretty good.

A super-simple dinner from the other night. I wasn't feeling much like eating, but I needed something.

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Whole30 Day 9



Just a piece of toast. With butter. Oh, that would taste so lovely.

Sigh. From the Whole30 article "A Day-by-Day Guide to Your Whole30":
...[days 8-10] gets really intense for some people. This is the part of the program where our minds try to drive us back to the comfort of the foods we used to know. Our food relationships are deeply rooted and strongly reinforced throughout the course of our lives and breaking through them is really big deal. 
Yup. Right on schedule. The up side is, I skipped most of the other phases prior to this. I've have a pretty easy go of it so far. But when you get a former vegetarian/vegan eating animal protein at virtually every meal, a brick wall IS going to pop up. I added meat back into my diet because strict veg protein wasn't working for me anymore, but I never intended to eat this much animal protein.

I'm also having issues with all the "creamy mouth-feel" fats that I've been eating. They've all been healthy to be sure, and recommended on the diet. But in addition to being a former veg, I also tend to prefer lower-fat things. I would much rather have mustard than mayonnaise any day of the week. I can happily go weeks without cheese and not miss it. I almost never order a pasta with cream sauce; I much prefer the red sauce. Fat is definitely an important part of any diet, but I am so sick of extra virgin olive oil right now I can't begin to tell you.

I didn't eat much yesterday. I did make the beef stew but never had any for dinner. That will most likely happen tonight as I won't get home from work until after 8pm. For breakfast today I'm going to have a fruit salad. Which isn't exactly kosher on Whole30, but all of the fruits are on the "okay" list. I was a bad girl and put a second tsp of maple syrup into my second cup of coffee. It tastes HEAVENLY. I'm going to start eating the mustard again, which also isn't exactly kosher as it has grain vinegar in it. But if I can maintain this for the duration with just the addition of mustard then I'm going to consider this a win.

I really want to make the full 30 days of this challenge!

Monday, January 28, 2013

Whole30 Day 8

I need to stop stepping on the scale to "track my progress". Down that way lies madness. I am endeavoring to eat in a healthy manner and to correct some issues that have been plaguing me lately. Any weight loss that happens is purely coincidental, however welcome it may be.


Anyway. Here is a picture of the chicken coconut curry with asparagus and spinach that I had for dinner last night.
Nom Nom Nom

My weekend is a short one this week; only one day. I picked up a shift yesterday so I've only got today to clean the house, do the laundry, do some homework, and relax. I'm not sure I can fit it all into today! I'm thinking about going to Barnes and Nobles (where I spend most of my free time) to pick up a Useless Book. In other words, one that will not enlighten me in any way, shape or form. Because after the homework, I'm going to want useless. So we'll see what ends up happening.

For dinner tonight, I think I'm going to make a beef stew in the crock pot. I am planning on grating up some beet in the food processor and adding it in. We'll see how that works. Beets are so good for you. I want to like them, I really do. Sigh.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Whole30 Day... 7? Maybe? I'm Losing Count.

I think it's seven.

Last night I went out to dinner with my cousin. I was thankfully even able to stay on plan while I was there. I had a small steak and a lot of broccoli. I haven't ordered steak at a restaurant in seriously 15 years. It tasted divine. I was even able to pass up the chocolately, gooey, wonderful dessert she ordered. Which is no small feat because I think I saw Ex there while we were waiting for a table. Which threw me for a hell of a loop. Now, in all fairness, I only saw the guy's back and an extreme profile and there are lots of other guys who look like him. But still. And he was with a young, blonde thing. So whether it was Ex or Some Other Guy, I was pretty shaky and thrown off my game. And still I managed to eat sensibly and healthily.

YAY ME!!!!!

A simple snack yesterday afternoon: apple slices and organic salami.
I'm not weighing myself. Officially. Unofficially I've lost six pounds. That's like a pound a day. And that's with clothes ON, too. And not just clothes, flannel pjs with a fleece pull-over and socks because it's been so frakking cold here.

I am over the moon thrilled about this. This is weight that has needed to come off, and I am worried that once the 30 days are over it will come right back on. Because let's face it, it's a pretty extreme way to eat. Well, in America, anyway. We love our carbs. I was in the grocery store yesterday walking around with a basket full of veg and they were baking chocolate chip cookies. The smell just about killed me. And I knew they weren't even good cookies and I could make way better.

Yesterday's breakfast: scrambled eggs with broccoli and sweet potato "hash", avocado and salsa

So, I'm going to need to find a way to make this work for me. Luckily I've got 23 days to figure it out.

And in the meantime, my OkCupid profile is back up and running. Time to move on.

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Whole30 Day 6?

Yeah, Day 6.

So far, so good. I've switched from honey in my coffee to maple syrup because I ran out of honey. Honey is a hell of a lot more paleo, but the maple syrup was free so there you go. Ah, the joys of living in Vermont, wherein anyone can make maple syrup, so long as they have a couple trees to tap and the patience to boil the sap for like 10 hours straight.

I desperately need to get to the grocery store. All I have in the house are some nuts, a 1/3 a head of cabbage, eggs and sausage. Which I can work with, but it's like meal four of these same basic ingredients. Gah! Change! CHANGE!

I am going to try an expand my vegetable horizons this time around and stray from the cruciferous veg route. They seem to be some of my favorite to eat, but after six days running with little else but cauliflower, cabbage and broccoli, I'm down for something new. I'm going to do my best to "eat a rainbow" this week. I'm going to go out on a limb and buy a beet. Blech. But, there's tons of good stuff in beets and word on the street is you can shred it and mix it into other things. I'm all down for tricking myself into eating it.

Earlier in the week when I had variety. Mushroom and spinach "hash" with an egg, over easy I believe. Quite tasty!

Steamy McSteamerson! Local beef burger, steamed broccoli and baked sweet potato fries, with homemade aoli
Aside from food boredom, things are going pretty well. I am still liking this way of eating and am not feeling deprived. I ran out of fruit yesterday morning though and have been jonzing for a banana or something "sweet" to end my meals. Much better to have a piece of fruit for dessert than a piece of cake!

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Whole30 Day 3

No, I'm not going to do this every day for the next 30 days. Or maybe I WILL.... only time will tell. Insert evil laugh here. My meals yesterday:

B: Coffee, paleo "cereal" with 1/2 a banana
L: Sauteed cabbage and onion with chicken and an egg (very delish), some strawberries
D: Turkey slices wrapped around avocado and cucumber
ES: chicken with Whole30 mayo and leftover sweet potato fries, banana

The "evening snack" turned out to be more of an "evening meal". I didn't really need it. I wasn't really hungry. But I wanted something to do while I was watching television. At least it was "on program", so to speak.

Today's going to be a little odd as I woke up really late (too late for the yoga class I was going to attend) and breakfast has turned into brunch. So it may end up being just two meals and a snack. We'll see.

I've got to say, so far I'm liking this way of eating. I feel like I'm eating enough food without eating too much food, and that it stays with me for a lot longer. My energy levels feel much more consistent as well. Honestly, it's a little odd to not go through a day with energy spikes and lulls. It's kinda nice! I will say I am never going to get used to the coffee with coconut milk and a scant tsp of honey... that's the one thing I'm changing BACK as soon as Day 31 arrives.

In other news, it's frakking COLD outside and I'm just hoping my car starts so I can go to work. Fingers crossed!

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Whole30 Challenge: Day 2

Yesterday was my first day of the challenge and it went quite well, if I do say so myself. I will probably never get used to the coconut milk in the coffee. Word of warning: I am cheating with my coffee. After much hemming and hawing, I have decided to put a scant teaspoon of raw honey in it because 1) the world is crazy enough; it doesn't need to deal with me with no coffee and 2) you bet your sweet boopy if Mr. Caveman found a honeycomb he was all up on that shite.

Just sayin'.

Aside from that, I'm following the diet to the letter. Well, maybe a little more fruit than they'd like, but they are regulation fruit and I'm sure my usage will go down as time progresses. I'm also eating a few more nuts than they prefer, I think. But again, regulation and will probably lessen with time. This is what I ate yesterday:

B: 2 cups coffee with coconut milk, "paleo" cereal (slivered almonds, coconut flakes and slivered pecans), with some strawberries and coconut milk

L: Organic roasted chicken, avocado and onion wrapped in cabbage leaves, carrot and cucumber sticks, banana

D: Local beef burger, sweet potato fries (baked), and steamed broccoli. With homemade aoli.

S: closed palmful of pecans, 1/2 a banana

The snack was an evening one, I was feeling hungry so I had a nibble. It was the only time yesterday I actually felt hungry. This plan is good in that it is helping me re-balance my meals. Lately I've been eating a LOT at dinner, a small lunch and virtually nothing for breakfast. Which I don't think is helping me much.

One nice thing about this is there is a Whole30 mayonnaise recipe about, which you can use as your fat (which is included at each meal). So I made some yesterday.
I also wore some yesterday.

I am not generally one for mayonnaise, but I foresee using this as a base for salad dressings as well, and quite possibly as a vegetable dip at some point. This one batch will last me the entire month and will probably go bad before I can use it all.

Right now I am waiting for the point where I OD on vegetables and have a mad bread craving. Shudder. That ain't going to be pretty, people.

Friday, January 18, 2013

Countdown to Whole30

I'm starting this program on Monday, just two days away. And I'm going grocery shopping today. Because I get PAID today. Grocery shopping lately has been a stressor for me. As much as I love doing it, the money just isn't there these days. So I eat my anxiety and have to go buy more food with money that isn't there.

Ah, vicious circle indeed.

As much as I'm hoping this will lessen my need for ALL THINGS BREAD, I'm also hoping this will help reset a few buttons. Mainly the MUST STUFF FACE button. In fact, if that button could be uninstalled I'd appreciate it, thanks.

My main concern for the last week has been figuring out what to do with breakfast. Left to my own devices, on any given day my breakfast consists of two cups of coffee. If I'm feeling peckish I'll have a couple pieces of toast or a piece of fruit. That's it. I am just not a breakfast person, never have been. And the idea of having to consume a rather large amount of protein (read animal protein. read eggs! bacon! sausage!) fills me with dread. I can handle a breakfast on that scale once a month as a treat. But every day? Blech! I end up feeling greasy all day long. Not fun.

Apparently I'm not the only one out there who is not a big fan of "traditional" breakfast foods and I've gotten some good ideas. The best so far is a kind of paleo "cereal" made of nuts, coconut milk and fruit. I may be giving that one a try. I'm not much of a cereal-for-breakfast girl but the nuts make it much more filling in a way that cereal has never been for me. Oh, if you don't know what "paleo" is, click here.

As an aside, I was thinking last night what a First World Problem dieting is. We're so concerned about the "healthiest" way to eat. We have the Paleo Diet, Atkins, Low-Carb, Vegan, Mediterranean, etc etc. You know what most of the world thinks about food? Oh hey, I found some. I should probably eat it before someone steals it because it may be a long time before I eat again.


And now, I need to go buy one last bagel before my 30 breadless days begin.

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Whole 30

Starting next week, my friend Marie and I will be doing a 30-day program called Whole 30. It's a low-carb, dairy-free, whole food program with an emphasis on healthy fats, protein and vegetables that will hopefully clear out some of my bad food habits and help make me a healthier, happier person.

I am excited and nervous about this new program. I like carbs. A lot. A lot a lot. So this will be interesting. Luckily Marie has been through this a time or two and has been giving me a lot of good advice. I am hoping I will make it through the entire 30 days. Without pizza. Without potato chips.



Avocados are a healthy fat that we're allowed to eat quite a bit of. YES!!!!!

Monday, January 14, 2013

Yoga Teacher Training


So my first weekend intensive was this past weekend, and WOW was it an amazing experience. I am already so excited for my next class and it's a month away. Two 90 minute classes in two days is pretty intense and my hamstrings are letting me know they exist, but it could be a lot worse.

The class is large,  around 32 of us I believe. And - more crazy - we have two guys! I've got to give them credit, it takes some cojones to be one of only two men in a group of 30 women. Everyone seems to be really nice. There is a nice blend of ages, experience and professions. Although all told there are at least six massage therapists in class. Pretty cool!

I'm still trying to figure out how to do the home study piece... they haven't told us exactly how many hours we need so knowing me I may end up going a bit over board. I'm also still trying to figure out how to get to the weekly yoga classes with the two teachers. The ones that would be the best to attend are the most unfeasible ones for me to attend. I knew that going in, though. I'll figure it out one way or the other I guess. I know this week I'll be attending the 90 minute "Level 1" class. It'll be a little on the easy side, but it'll give my hamstrings a chance to recover and me a chance to work on my form.

I am so glad I decided to do this. It was exactly what I was needing in my life right now.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

It's Happening!

I just paid off my remaining balance for my yoga teacher training. I'M DOING THIS. (!)

I am super excited for this. Actually, I think I am really needing this in my life right now. As much as I keep pretending I'm all right (fake it 'til you make it), I'm really not. So more than anything, I'm hoping that this training will give me the means and opportunity to be okay again. Because I'd much rather be okay. Okay is the place to be.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Holy FRAK it is cold.

I think my heater has been going for 12 hours straight, and let me tell y'all, it's not making any progress. But when it gets below zero farenheit (and it did last night, much below it), it doesn't really matter. Heating a place is pretty much a losing fight. So you do what I do an burrow under four blankets, a bunch of pillows, and flannel pajamas and just ride it out.

Unfortunately for me, I got caught up once again in my book and when I looked it was some time after 1am. Whoops. Luckily I work an afternoon shift so I can just make up the sleep no problem. Except... I couldn't fall asleep. It was some time after 3 before I finally nodded off. And I think it was quite some time after 3. So you'll understand my chagrin when my phone went off at 7:30a informing me I have a client. Next Tuesday. Thanks ever so!

I turned over to continue sleeping, and I managed it for a while. And then people starting going up the stairs to another apartment. And then down the stairs. And then up. Down. Up. Down. They are installing a new heater up there today because my friend the former tenant moved out over the weekend. Because her fiancee - ironically with the same first name as my ex - broke her heart and the relationship. We have both decided that with few exceptions, all men with First Name are assholes.

Speaking of First Name.... one of the downsides of not being able to sleep is that the tears that you manage to not spill usually end up spilling. Because, hell, it's 3:30 in the morning and 3:30am is simply crying out for crying jags. But I did come to some kind of realization last night/this morning/when the frak ever. He is a wound that will probably never fully heal. It will most likely be a little sore to the touch for the rest of my life. There is nothing wrong with that, necessarily. Just that it needs to be recognized and accepted before moving forward. Before moving on.

I think in life we each have at least one thing from which we never fully recover. We manage to keep the wound bandaged, we find a way to dull the pain and get on with our lives. We essentially ignore the fact that under the band-aid or paper-thin scar tissue is a deep hurt that will just not knit back together. It's a mistake to say that "time heals all wounds". Time heals most wounds. Some wounds just don't heal, so you find a way to live around it. But the important thing is... you find a way to live.

A picture from my Florida trip. I'm betting it's a LOT warmer there. Because it sure as hell can't get much colder...

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