Thursday, August 30, 2012

What the heck was that?

I try to self-Reiki every night, usually as I'm laying in bed but before I actually go to sleep. Actually, it helps me sleep and it's pretty common for me to drift off as I'm doing it. Which, unlike falling asleep during meditation, is completely okay. The Reiki will often continue to flow regardless of whether or not I'm awake.

Last night I must have drifted off as I was doing this, because all of the sudden I was jolted awake by... something. It felt like a huge scary thing was released. I have absolutely no idea what let go, but it was most definitely something that was causing me fear, as that's what I felt leaving me.

I drifted back to sleep quickly and easily and pretty much forgot all about it until like an hour ago when I couldn't figure out why the heck I have absolutely no energy today. It's a gorgeous day outside and it's a free day for me so I should be out living it to the fullest. But all I can manage is switching from What Not To Wear to House Hunters to Barefoot Contessa.

I don't often acknowledge how draining going through emotional... shit can be. I'm from good ol' Yankee Stock, which means all too often my advice to myself is "stop feeling sorry for yourself. Suck it up and get on with things." Which sometimes is good advice, especially when you find yourself wallowing. But sometimes, when you've been dealing with stuff and working through stuff and letting stuff go, you're much better off being gentle with yourself. All that baggage releasing takes an energetic toll and if what is going to help you recharge is to become one with your couch named Esmerelda, then it is perfectly okay to do that.

Just, y'know, not for a month.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Weekends are Cool

Yesterday was the first Sunday I've had off in years. The weather even cooperated by being a gorgeous late summer kind of day.

It was a pretty low-key day for me. I slept in and then headed off for a belly dancing rehearsal for our upcoming show. Then I headed up one of the mountains to visit my Mum, who was covering for my brother at Sleepy Hollow Inn (my bro and his girl are groundskeepers, for lack of a better term). They are both out in Seattle for a friend's wedding.


As I was driving home last night, this was my view:

Rockin', eh?

It's been weird not working today. It's Monday and usually right now I'd be getting ready for work. But at the moment I'm IMing with my bud Marie and watching Tia and Tamera and writing this post.


Saturday, August 25, 2012


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I've seen a lot of them lately. Much more than I normally see going the course of my life. So, of course, that meant that I needed to look them up as a totem. In the past, I've gotten totem advice from both crows and hares. So why not dragonflies?
Dragonfly is the essence of the winds of change, the messages of wisdom and enlightenment; and the communication from the elemental world. Dragonfly medicine beckons you to seek out the parts of your habits which need changing. Call on Dragonfly to guide you through the mists of illusion to the pathway of transformation. (click here)
 I like this, a lot. I feel like I am on the brink of massive change. That I'm searching for... I have no idea what. Similarly:
Dragonfly embodies a stripping away of all the beliefs that say we cannot do this or that, achieve a dream or goal, it is to remind us that anything is possible when we really get the understanding that we are part of Spirit and as such we have the power to manifest anything that we desire.  
Dragonfly is the keeper of dreams, the knower within that sees all of our true potential and ability. Dragonfly strips away the illusions that say to us we cannot achieve our dreams and goals, that we are not worthy or capable when in fact it is our birthright and our true power to create anything we choose! (click here)
I love this!!! Later in the article it mentions working with emotions through the lower chakras, which is huge for me. This is really the first time in my life that I've embraced my full range of emotions. I swear, I've cried more times in the past year than I have in the past 15. Which is a good thing. Somewhere along the line, I started equating tears with weakness. I did not allow myself to feel the painful emotions and so they hunkered down, brewing and simmering until they erupted in the most ineffective manners.

The second quote also follows very closely with the Reiki session I had a month or so ago. It was a transformative session that allowed me to move forward with ideas and dreams I thought I "couldn't" do. I am doing them, I am pursuing the dreams.

We can create our own reality. I just need to keep reminding myself of this!

Monday, August 20, 2012

Onward and Upward

Today marks my last shift at Old Place. As of 8:31pm, I will no longer be reporting for duty. My weekend will now actually include a weekend day. I will be able to enjoy my Sundays as a day off for the first time in over three years.

My leaving is not bitter-sweet. I am ready to move forward to new possibilities. However, it is also not an instance of "good riddance to bad rubbish." Overall, my time at Old Place has been good. I am thankful for the opportunities they gave me. I have learned so much there and have met so many wonderful people I'd have never met otherwise. It was exactly what I needed when I needed it.

And now... it's time for me to move on to something else. It's the way of things. I have so many wonderful possibilities lined up for the next 18 months, including a Mani Lomi training in a couple weeks and my continued determination to take a yoga teacher training next year.

Yes, there are possibilities. And it's time to take the risk and jump without the net.

I'm ready.

Friday, August 17, 2012

Time Just Flies.

I was sitting here scrolling through my blog roll when it occurred to me I hadn't posted anything in nearly a week. Maybe a little more.

Time speeds by so quickly these days. How did it get to be the middle of August already? What do you mean it's been over a week since I posted anything? The week's over already? Didn't it just start? All of the kids are going back to school next week? It's going to be Labor Day in three weeks?

What the hell do you mean I'm 38 already?!?!

I spent most of yesterday rushing around. Down to the drug store to pick up a prescription and buy some tooth-related stuff, three different stores to cobble together a belly dance outfit for my show on the 8th of September. Grocery shopping. Home to drop off the food and eat a late lunch then off to get a much needed massage, where my therapist proceeded to tell me that a trigger-point bomb went off in my left shoulder. Then I did laundry. Then I came home where I vowed not to leave for the rest of the evening. And then made chili. And cornbread.

Today is my "Sunday". I don't plan on doing much. I need to clean the house a little as it's looking pretty bad and take the clothes down off the clothes rack. I'm going to hit a yoga class at 12:30. When I first started yoga, I was very methodological about it. The 9am Saturday class every week, without fail. That was the class I took. If I could fit another one in during the week, great. But now? Every week it's a crapshoot as to which class I'm going to take. It is ironic in that my work schedule allows me MORE time to try and fit it in, but my life schedule leaves me LESS. But I am determined to make my yoga practice a practice once again. I see the positive waves of it pulsing through my life. I want to continue with this.

It's just getting time to stop flying for a few god damned hours so I can take advantage of it. Know what I mean?

Monday, August 13, 2012

This Actually Works!

Or: Great Experiment Redux.

I got this idea earlier in the year from Pinterest: take the ends of your store-bought romaine lettuce and plant them in the ground. Then water and wait.


That's like four or five days' growth on the near one. I swear at one point on Friday it doubled in size over a couple hours. Even Boyfriend commented on it.

So yeah. Don't just throw out those lettuce ends. Recycle 'em!

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Florida Highlights

Things you won't find in a New England farmer's market

Every Saturday, the Riverside Arts Market. Very cute!

View of Jacksonville from the River Walk

Scrub Palm on the hike we took Saturday

This is Bob. He was the size of my hand. 

Which way do we go, Alex?

I just loved the way the sun shone through the palm leaves

Huge monster ancient tree in the Cummer Museum gardens

Cummer Museum gargoyle thinking things over.

Isn't it pretty?

Friday, August 3, 2012

And.... we're off!!

Packed bags? check.
Boarding passes printed? check.
Phone, wallet, ID and ipod? check.

Copious amounts of OCD pre-boarding checking of above? In the works.

It's officially time for Four Fabulous Floridian days!!! I will most likely return as crispy bacon despite the copious amounts of sunscreen I'll apply. It's okay though. Everyone likes bacon!


Wednesday, August 1, 2012


I'm tired. I'm worried. I'm frustrated. Basically, I'm just feeling rather down in the dumps.

Tomorrow starts my five-days-in-a-row-of-being-responsible-for-NOTHING. Otherwise known as my vacation. Five days is not enough, but it will have to do. It will help that I will be hanging with a cool friend who will also be on vacation and is in desperate need of a brain vacation.

Tomorrow is also chocked full of things I need to do. So it isn't really going to feel like day one of a vacation. I *need* to do laundry. It's the only day I really have to do yoga. I need to pack. I need to finish cleaning the apartment. I need to go to dance class. Honey is coming up and I *want* to hang with him.

Doesn't leave a lot of time for me not being responsible for anything, does it?

Something is going to give tomorrow, and I have a sneaky suspicion it's going to be the yoga class. Which is probably the one thing I shouldn't give up. Sigh. We shall see.

I'm so tired, yo.

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