Now, I've never given up a religion to be in a relationship, but it brought me back once again to my uncomfortable relationship with religion.
I'm pretty sure I've mentioned before that I grew up Methodist and left it pretty much as soon as I left the house. I think I also have said before that, generally speaking, I respect the idea of religion/s, however that is defined for the person. It takes a little more openness of mind if you're in to worshipping Stargon, the Leader of an Alien Race Sent to Bring Us Back Home, but hey. Whatever gets you through the day.
I'm always on the lookout for a Religion that fits more closely with what I believe in the hopes that I can once again find that community I so treasured when I was young. Because, I think more than the spirituality of the thing, it's the community I miss. But it seems whenever I find something that behooves me to get past the books and into the community, the people seem to get in the way.
Don't get me wrong - 98% of the people I've met where GOOD people. Kind people. In fact, many of the people I've met on my various explorations remain friends. I guess, I've noticed over the years that:
Religion + People = Drama
If I must put it bluntly. Everyone comes together on a chosen day to Believe together for a few hours. Then, everyone breaks up in to committees and cliques and the drama begins. So-and-so thinks they're a martyr because they're on so many committees. This bunch of people are choir nazis. This, that, the other. The Religion isn't the problem, it's the people in it. Normal people who are otherwise perfectly likable get caught up in one-upping everyone else in who is the Better Follower.
Where is the spirituality in that? The devotion? The Love so many religions profess to offer to their followers?
So, I guess in the meantime I am content to explore and expand my spiritual horizons through books and contemplation. As much as I'd like to find other like-minded people to toss around ideas and grow with, adding people might just mess things up.