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I just needed to share with everyone...

...the kind of day I had today:

Thanks for coming along!

Yeah, okay so.


1. Last week during class I was working with one of my classmates - crazy, I know. Anyway, we were hanging out after class and walking into our local New Agey store when she was like: Oh yeah! When I was working on you today I kept seeing you surrounded by citrine! You need to get some citrine while we're here!

Never one to look a cosmic thwack in the head askance, I did so. Damned if it hasn't made a difference! For those of you not in the know (including me until four days ago), citrine is one of the few stones the never need "cleansing" as it is such a strong repeller of negative energy. Also, it coincides with the third chakra (solar plexus) and is a very good stone for creativity and those in need of a boost to their self-esteem. Which, yeah, I need. Daily. Anyway, you can read more about it here if you like.

2. I'm becoming increasingly impatient by my lack of forward movement regarding the next stage of my life. Really, it's not that anything…

Vegan Lines in the Sand

I think I posted a little while ago about things I was on the fence about vegan-wise. Today while I was at work, I was comparing prices between an Aveda foundation and a few other known-vegan brands that I would have to special order. Prices were comparable, but I had to do some searching to determine if Aveda was vegan. Turns out, most (although not all) of their products are! Since I get an employee discount for Aveda, I was all "score!" and went for it. Because it's good stuff.
I posted my happy find on Facebook, and not too long after a friend pointed out that Aveda was owned by Estee Lauder, who tests on animals. Now, I knew that E.L. owned Aveda and that PETA considers anything owned by them non-Vegan as a result of this, but it opened a deeper question for me - how far am I really willing to take this?
I mean, everything is owned by something, and most seemingly good things are owned by the corporations you're trying to avoid (ie, Colgate owns Tom's of Maine…

Lost Chances

Last summer, I was briefly seeing someone. It was pretty casual, to be honest. He was cute, had a great sense of humor, was fun, had a good job, and a son whom he adored.
And I called it off before it got anywhere.
Why? Now, that's the question, isn't it? I've been thinking a lot about that lately. The original reason at the time was because things blew up for me work-wise. I was in such a deep, bad place that I was in self-preservation mode. I literally felt chained to that job and I was doing all I could just to find the key to the lock. I couldn't devote the time or energy necessary to starting a relationship, and I didn't think it was fair to him to suck him down into my mire.
But, it's been almost nine months. I'm not in that mire anymore. Sure, I barely have time to think these days (unless it's of anatomy - then I wish I could stop thinking about it for a little while), but over all I am in a much better place. A place where I can start thinking ab…

Throat Chakra

We are at the Throat Chakra in our studies at school (just two more to go!). Our assignment for this one is to write/create something around something we haven't been able to voice, and then describe (in writing) how it felt to do that.
I just don't know where to begin with this one. I mean, I write all the time. This blog and my journal are filled with the things I needed to voice but couldn't for one reason or another. For me, it is very cathartic. I'll write it and let the page/post hold what there is to it, and then let it go. I'll often go back and visit it later, but once it is out, I feel much better.
So, I was kind of thinking that since I already do that as a means of dealing with the things I can't say, it's not much of an assignment for me, is it? I suppose I could take the easy way out and just go with it. But I was thinking... a much more appropriate thing for me to do would be to actually SAY those things out loud, to someone, anyone. Even if it…

Vegan! (?)

I've been mostly vegan since November, so that's around five months now. That includes two major holidays in which copious amounts of goodies are consumed, most of which contain milk and eggs. Luckily my mom chose not to make any of her famous cookies this year, otherwise I'd have been sorely tempted.
So far, it's been going pretty well. I'm not 100% and when people ask if I am vegan, I say I am transitioning. Because the reality is, I am. I do pretty well for myself at home, but going anywhere in a social setting gets interesting. Luckily I do not currently have a social life, so I haven't had to test myself too much. Where I live, there are no vegan restaurants. Many of the restaurants are veg*n friendly however. I've come to figure out which ones are "safe" and recommend those on the rare occasions I eat out (why does it always take me three tries to spell occasion?).
I am still on the fence about honey. I know all the arguments as to why it'…

Looking Back

I just spent the last hour going over some old posts from the past year or so. It is so interesting to go back and read about the stuff that now is just distant memory. As I was writing, it was fresh and in-the-moment. I could actually find the exact day (May 15th) where the idea of becoming a massage therapist jelled into a viable option.
I get a kick out of looking back at the person I was a year ago. I was in a very different place this time last year. I was in a job I hated, trying to get over a guy I liked but who didn't fancy me in the same way, and was desperately searching for something, anything that would bring a little meaning back into a life that didn't seem to have any.
Now, I'm going to school for a career that will bring comfort and peace to people, and am pretty much over the guy I fancied (most days) and am generally speaking much happier now. Much more exhausted, but happier.
I've travelled a long distance this past year, and I've only begun this …

Happy Chocolate Bunny Day!

Happy Easter to all of you who celebrate it! Happy Passover to all of you have been celebrating it (my apologies for my lateness) and Happy Ostara to those of you who prefer the pre-christian bacchanalia.
I had today off. Squee! It is my first Sunday off since I started working at the salon. And it couldn't have been a more beautiful day. Shining sun, blue sky with puffy white cottonballs for clouds and a warmth that belies the earliness of the season.
I had a couple things I needed to do today - I needed to give a practice massage and do some laundry and vacuum. The massage took two hours to do; mainly because we took the first hour just to sit around and chat. It was SO NICE to be able to just hang for a while and chat without having to rush off somewhere. It was such a rare treat.
I also took a nice long walk this afternoon. Another treat. Walking is my preferred form of exercise, and I so rarely get to partake these days. Being able to just go off and wander for a while in the…


I'm becoming a little concerned about my new-found "habit" of sleepwalking. I've never done that up until this point. I used to sleep talk, but so far as I know I've stopped that. Or have I?
Anyway, last night I once again woke up in the middle of the night convinced that I needed to go somewhere and do something (this happened around the same time last week too). Luckily I only got like two steps away from the bed when I realized it was happy sleepy fun time and went back to bed. I think last week I was almost at the door.
I am just barely conscious enough to have a vague memory of doing this, but for the most part I'm just waking up enough to catch myself before I walk around town in my jammies and a glazed expression on my face. Which would fit in with a lot of other people around here, actually.
My brother used to sleepwalk as a kid (which made for some really interesting screaming sessions when he would stand outside my door and just stare in. Fun!) but he …