Friday, June 26, 2009

RIP Jacko

I was never one of those rabid Michael Jackson fan who owned everything he ever did or every piece of merchandise ever produced. I didn't support him as his career plummeted and the scandals flew. I fully believed that at 50, he didn't have a come-back in him and he was done. I also fully believed that the guy seriously needed to see a shrink because he had a LOT of problems, whether or not he did all those things people alleged.

What I do remember about MJ is that I loved the Thriller album.  On my 8th or 9th birthday I had a party at my house. I think maybe 6 girls attended. My friend Kristy Cordeau, whom I'd known all my life, gave me the record (yes, record) for a present. I have a sneaky suspicion she bought it at JJ Newbury's, a long-since defunct store that carried a little bit of everything, and even had a lunch counter held over from the 1940's.

I played that record into the ground. This was before my 10th birthday when I received a tape player, so at the time my records consisted mainly of this, an ABBA record stolen from my mom, and the Return of the Jedi spoken soundtrack (I can still do that movie word for word). We didn't have MTV, so I didn't know all the dance moves; it didn't matter. I danced to it anyway. I loved it. It was the soundtrack of everyone in my elementary school. Every recess you'd see half the school moonwalking across the playground.

That poor guy had a tortured, spoiled, unrealistic life. However, the world has lost a great talent who positively touched the lives of so many people on this planet. For a time, he was the great unifying force everyone could get behind when no one could agree on anything.

I hope he has found the peace and relief he was so desperately looking for all his adult life.

Safe journey to you, Michael Jackson.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


So, I've been waking up fairly early this week. I think part of it is a hold over from UK time (it's 5 hours ahead of the East Coast), but part of it is I've been waking up with the sun, so to speak.

It leaves me tired, but it's also a nice way to start the day as I don't have to rush around in order to get to work somewhat on time. I have time to do a couple sun salutations, and relax over coffee. Heck, even take a shower!

This morning, after my sun salutations and with my cup o' java, I submitted my application for massage therapy school.


If I get in (and really there's no good reason why I shouldn't), it's going to mean big changes for me for the next nine months. Or longer. I'll be living on a severely reduced income, for one thing.

I am excited and terrified all at the same time. I think this is truly one of the biggest "risks" I've taken in my life. But I need change. And for a Taurus to say that, you know it's got to be pretty bad.

I need to believe in what I'm doing. I need to feel good about it, like I'm making a difference. I don't doubt that the work will be hard and I'll be challenged more than I have been in a while. But it will be work I believe in; work I can get behind. That matters.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

I'm Back!!

Okay, so it's been a while since I've been around. I got back from the UK on Saturday night, but this is the first time I've really had a chance to sit down and write anything.

My trip was amazing! I hope to write up some of my experiences in a bit more detail later on, but suffice it to say I had an absolute blast and I cannot wait to go back. I got my first taste of Scotland this time around by staying a few days in Edinburgh. I think I may just move there. LOVED it. It was amazing. Words cannot express.

Anyway, things will be changing now that I am back. Before I left, I was kind of hoping something would come to pass (sorry so vague, email me if you like) but it turns out that fell through. So Plan B is moving up to Plan A. So, I may be going to Massage Therapy school this fall. Which means I should probably submit my application ASAP. 

It's scary though. While there are evening classes around, the "vibe" of the school doesn't suit. The one I'm looking at would necessitate major life changes, as the classes are three days a week, 9-4. The real question becomes: Do I dare?

I'm not sure yet. It's exciting and scary at the same time.

Anyway, here are a few pictures from my trip. Enjoy!

Friday, June 12, 2009


As of 4pm EST, I will be on vacation. Woo-hoo!!!

I am working a full day (crazy me), then getting on a plane to go to the UK for the week. The plan behind working all day is to exhaust myself so I can sleep on the plane. Yeah. Like that will happen. Still, it's an idea.

I am all packed, my suitcase is in my car. I have my passport, enough £'s to buy me a cup of coffee when I land and my dear friend's address. Although they will be picking me up at the airport so all's well.

It's going to be jam-packed this coming week, with lots of train trips and hanging out with friends. It's a very desperately needed vacation, as I haven't had a week off since February of 2007 when I went to Italy. Two years is a long time to go without a week off.

I'm hoping this trip to the UK fixes my mood and gets me past some of the things I need to get past. Heck, with all the pubs I'm sure I can at least forget it for a while!

And yes, while in Scotland I will be trying a deep-fried Snickers. Because no one here will let me live it down if I don't. Hee hee! ;-)

Wednesday, June 10, 2009


Just two more days until vacation

Just two more days until vacation

Just two more days until vacation

Just two more days until vacation

Just two more days until vacation

Just two more days until vacation

Just two more days until vacation

Just two more days until vacation

Just two more days until vacation


Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Random Crap Running Through My Head

1. A friend of mine has breast cancer. She went in for her mastectomy this morning and by all accounts she is out of surgery and resting comfortably, but damn. She is younger than I am. Cancer sucks eggs.

2. People often forget that I am shy because I don't much act it anymore. People often don't understand why I don't stand up for myself and voice my opinions when maybe I should. People often don't realize that the main reason shy people seldom say things when maybe they should is that somewhere in the past, they mustered up the courage to speak up and were unequivocably squashed like a penny on a railroad track (and believe me when I say that's what it felt like). And sometimes, it just really isn't worth the argument or battle or tongue-lashing that would ensue. So we need a safe place to vent, which is usually to friends we trust.

I know it gets frustrating to people who can just say what they think. But it gets frustrating to us when all we want is a sympathetic ear and we get "you should..." "why didn't you..." etc etc. Because we couldn't, that's why.

And for the record, I can stand up for myself.

3. I cannot frakking wait for my vacation. Three days and counting.

4. I am sick of the weather. One nice day followed by six crappy ones. It's getting on my nerves. Obviously, as this entire post seems to be turning into a rant.

5. Have I mentioned lately that I really need a vacation?

6. I wish more of my friends lived close by. I'm very appreciative of the ones that do, but I really miss seeing the ones that don't!

7. I think I have just about given up on the male species. No offense to all of y'all, but I'm really freaking sick of this whole dating game. I'm a good catch, dammit! Why the hell am I still single? Probably because I only fall for guys who are emotionally/literally unavailable. What is up with that?

8. One hour to go before I can go home and enjoy some homemade lasagna. I used local cherry-wood smoked mozzarella and local ricotta. Plus I bought some faux italian sausage and mixed it in. Delish! Very rich and decadent and yummy.

9. I have a doctor's appointment so I can sleep until, say, 7:30 tomorrow morning. I cannot wait. I am so tired.

10. I want doritos and french dip. I blame you Marie. ;-)

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Well crap.

I followed a link posted by Vegan Dad last night about soy products, and how "good" they are. The link goes the Cornucopia Institute, who ran the study. This is their introductory blip about the report:

The Cornucopia Institute’s Organic Soy Report and accompanying Scorecard rates companies that market organic soy foods, such as soymilk, tofu and “veggie burgers,” based on ten criteria that are important to organic consumers—showcasing companies that are truly committed to the spirit and letter of the organic law while exposing those that do not rate highly or were unwilling to share their sourcing and production practices in our survey.

You can see how your favorite brands ranked here

I am heartened to know my favorite tofu in the world (Vermont Soy) rated an outstanding. Yay! However, my favorite soy milk (Silk) rated a poor. As did the majority of meat analogs and tofu brands on the market, including many I use when I'm feeling lazy or in need of junk food.

Well, crap.

Ignorance is bliss, I suppose. Luckily Vermont Soy makes soy milk so I can use that instead of Silk. Unfortunately, it's expensive for the amount you get and I prefer the taste of Silk. I suppose I'll just have to get used to it. Or buy the chocolate variety (insert childish glee here). Besides, I'd be supporting my local farmers. That is always a good thing!

I should also go back and start making my own veggie burgers. It's way more economical and I can control what goes into them. You can just stick 'em in the freezer and have them ready, just like the boca burgers (which rates a poor, by the way).

I don't know if I can give my Lightlife fake pepperoni. I love pepperoni on pizza!

Better Kate Than Never

As you've probably noticed (all six of you), over the last few months my contribution to this blog has dwindled significantly. In trying...